~ say what u feel ~

i saw and heard this while watching tv - "say what u feel". it's a good point there, but i'm not one of those who can easily say what i feel. utk menda2 berkaitan personal, often times d things that i would like to say just remain in my head, berlegar2 di minda, bermonolog sorang2... yes, that's usually me.

 

i've read it many2 times already, the gurus strongly suggest people (like me) to just say it. kalau x cakap, people will not know how u feel. ko depress, ko simpan sorg2 dlm ati. ko suka kt someone siap blushing2 pipi kalo berselisih, ko simpan sorg2 dlm ati. ko geram kt org, ko simpan dlm ati. ko rs annoyed kt org, ko simpan dlm ati. ko rs nk audition utk jd pengacara tv/radio, ko simpan dlm ati. am speaking for myself (tak tahu if org lain share d same idea), sometimes menda yg i rasa tu adalah perasaan2 negative yg xbest.... yg kalau dickpkn, akn buat org len marah/kecik ati/tension/geram smpi rs nk luku kt i. so, baek la diamkan aje (walaupn sllnye memakan diri sndiri cz sendiri yg skt ati balik). dlm cnth kes lain pulak, if i mmg marah/kecik ati/tension/geram smpi rs nk luku someone, sudah tentunya my tone akn naik secara mendadak if i don't control what comes out from my mouth based on what i feel. if xde org provoke, usually i just remain cm xde apa2 berlaku. tp if dh kna provoke sgt, hmmm... mgkn ayt2 sarcastic yg tidak menyenangkn hati akn kuar cm lava gunung berapi dr mulut ni. u wouldn't like me nnt, hehehehe.

 

itu berckp tentang what u feel secara verbal. kalo berckp in writing, mcm cnthnye tulis blog ni, hehehehe... kira ni pn konsep say what u feel gk. tp dlm bentuk tulisan.

 

when i read comments made by the public for any posts/news (kesah gossip ke, gmbr ke, etc2), kdg2 feel like "how can they write these comments here?". kalo comment secara membina, i ok lg. tp ada tu dh jd ala2 perang tulis2 dh kt ruang comment tu. yg mana de tulis yg emo sgt, mmg xsggp bc. kalo news psl artis, lagiiii.... reader A kutuk that artis, reader B kutuk reader A cz kutuk artis feveret dia, reader C sokg reader B, reader D kutuk A B and C.... and the process continues. bila dh jd kutuk2 in public cmtu, i just stop cz i don't feel it's something that i can stand to read further.

 

the same goes with the interaction/communication in facebook/twitter/youtube cnthnye. someone creates a twitter account to share anything with friends/fans/families/public. tp sudahnye jd port utk mengutuk/gaduh sesama sendiri pulak dh. sad to say, org len yg xde kait mengait tp membaca d posts will simply take side kt sesapa yg dia suka. and the cycle goes on and on. pdhal sebnrnye xtau pn sape yg say the right things and who is saying otherwise. yg pstinye, masing2 with the idea that they are free to say what they feel.

 

i know that akn ada suara2 yg ckp "kalo ko xsuka, xyah bc. diorg tulis pe yg diorg rs, nothing related dgn ko pn". mmg x related dgn i. dats d reason why i avoid reading those comments/remarks or following anything. to me it's just ridiculous that the remarks/comments section can cause gaduh among the readers/viewers.

 

as for verbally saying what i feel, let's just say i am those yg sllnye monolog sorg2 dlm kpale je sbb i pkir "terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata buruk padahnye". tp "air yg tenang, jgn sangka takde buaya". muahahaha... takut kah? =) 

 

peace y'all....

 

p/s: kalo menggedik tersuka someone pn, mmg disimpan di dlm hati jelah, huhuhuhu.