~ gloomy monday ~

taken from d same spot, dari tingkap ofis (mizz nina dh x kelihatan kt Ambank building):-

 

24 June 2013 - 7.31 a.m

 

24 June 2013 - 9.44 a.m

hoping that d current situation will get better... soon.

 

.take care.

 

~ what did u just call me? ~

5 hours after a mug of nescafe white coffee,

4 hours after calcium pill consumption, AND

4 hours after a bottle of Brand's Innershine Prune Plus

here's what happened

 

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~ i was doing this "research"at 3.18 a.m. ~

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just when u need ur sleep d most, u were up doing some "research" on "peplum kurung", so that u can get ur tailor to sew d kain to b d exact design??? omg!!!

 

come on!!!

this is what u called TECHNO-STRESS...

LOL =)

 

.it's now 3.54 a.m.

~ pentingnya penjagaan mata ~

i refrained myself from connecting to kehidupn alam maya from home since jumaat kerana i dh thp nk termuntah ijau mengadap laptop dan gigih siapkn krja kt rumah, WALAUPUN cuti. ye... mmg nk muntah ijau kalo kna hadap nearly 4000pages of Word document, harus sorting the list cz list tak sprti yg dihrpkn & do some editing here and there to reduce d number of pages. mmg nk muntah ijau kalo dh menghadap laptop dr bgn tido (lps mndi & brkfst & settlekn urusan rumah) smpi la ke mlm2 buta... bgn dr katil hanya utk g mkn, minum, solat, mndi, g toilet, buat stretching kaki sket & then continued to look at the screen for the nearly 4000pages document. i sprti org yg sgt x terurus. my mom pn xbrani nk kaco i once i dh dok bertapa dlm gua ats katil ni.

 

bila dh terrrrrrlalu lamaaaaaa sgt mengadap laptop (at home) and PC (in the office), finally on friday (after submitted document yg xbrp nk siap tu) i made my weekend resolution utk tidak mengadakan sebrg connection dgn alam maya until Monday. (**and also utk qadha tido cz i've been sleep deprived for several days as a result of kerja yg i kna settlekn tu). apart from exhaustion, d other reasons y i decided to refrain myself from getting connected dgn kehidupan alm maya adalah krn:-

 

coordination between my brain, eyes & fingers adalah xbgs

i kept on tersilap type when i sent messages to my frens. silap eja la, tertggl perkataan la. jenuh nk delete memnjg. brain transmitted different message but my fingers pressed different letters. so, i thought, sudah cukup sudah...berehat adalah lbh baik.

 

i saw things differently

org ckp, kalo mengadap lamaaaa sgt kt laptop or PC xbgs utk kesihatan mata. mata jd cpt letih. mata cpt berair. mata cpt berpinar. apa segala la yg org ckp psl keadaan kesihatan mata yg xbaik if trlalu lama sgt menghadap d screen. terbuktinye mata i mmg letih ya amat beberapa hari tu. there's 1 giant billboard psl melancong kt Jkrta kt tepi jln sepjg highway Sg Besi yg berbunyi "tertarik, inilah masanya". however bila npk that giant billboard, mata i lk captured the message differently...

 

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"tertarik, inilah MASALAHNYA"

 

.at that point of time, i knew that i mmg bermasalah sggh.

 

~ kedai plg best sepjg zmn ~

not many people can undrstnd how i can spend time berlama2 dlm bookstore. well, it's because i was raised that way (hahaha). i started reading at a very young age... by that i mean very, very young. my parents used to bring my sister & i to bookshops. we were free to belek2/pilih storybooks, colouring books, comics, stationery, art supplies, etc2 that we wanted. masa tu kecik lg. so xpikir pn la parents ni sure menggelabah nk kuarkn duit cz anak2 diorg berlama2 dlm kedai buku tu & dh pilih mcm2 sgt brg utk beli.

 

bila dh besar, br le pikir - "parents aku dulu krja keras nk cari duit utk ank2. kitorg lk asal masuk kedai buku, sure nk lama2. lpstu nk beli buku mcm2. kesiannye diorg". tp, kesedaran cmtu dh terlambat, nasik dh jd bubur... habit dr kecik dh membw ke besar. i mean, habit dok dlm kedai buku lma2 la (bkn habit gna duit mak bapak nk beli buku). smpi skrg i can sit for hours in a bookshop tnpa rs bersalah walau sikit pun. eh, silap... kalo i TERbw masuk kwn yg xbrp sgt suka nk dok lma2 dlm kedai buku, br la rs bersalah, hehehe.

 

msa wt matric & de 1 semester tu i amik kelas English je (1 semester amik English semata), rs bosannye kehidupan. trlbh rileks sgt. so, pnah la dgn roommate & her friend spent time dok 3jam dlm MPH. spent 3jam dlm kedai buku bersma kwn ms dh masuk uni cm agak rare case bunyinye. bila dh wt degree lk, smtimes g kedai buku kecik yg sll jual buku 2nd hand tu. kalo g kedai cmni xlh nk lma2 sgt cz kedai kecik & we r spoilt with too many books to choose from. so, kna wt pilihan buku dgn pantas. if not, asyik berlaga dgn org. 

 

i went to 3 different bookshops in a day last weekend, just to kill time =) was with my friend who have d same interest/habit. dlm 1 hari tu, we went to MPH, Popular & also Borders. paling lma kt MPH. paling sekjp kt Borders. & d following day, we went to Popular lg (at anothr mall lk) & berlma2 gk dlm tu. xla smpi 1 jam rasanye, tp puas la menjamu mata & gigih menahan nafsu nk beli mcm2. nanges. T___T

 

terima kasih bookstores in malaysia. masing2 dh upgrade & provide people like me & my friend (& a lot more out there), yg ada this weird connection with bookstores, with nice ambience. best dok dlm bookstore skrg. aircond sepoi2 bahasa je, jst nice if nk duduk lma2 smpi 5jam dlm kedai tu, hehehe. siap ada caffe, sofa gedabak cm kt umh utk nk dok lepak bc buku, mcm2 activities for d public, etc2. & not forgetting d fact that bookshops skrg jual byk sgt cute stationery. haiihhh, hw can i not go crazy bila masuk kedai buku? now, we also hv more of those kedai buku yg jual buku at cheaper price. yes, books in this country adalah sedikit mhl than books sold abroad. tp that shouldn't b an excuse to stop u from reading. 

 

credit to http://meinlilapark.blogspot.ch/

 

sedikit nsht (based on experience), don't force ppl to read books/materials that they dont like. read whtever that's interesting to YOU, not things that others find interesting. tp adik2, kalo kna bc buku skolah cz nk kna pass SPM, takleh la xsuka. hehehe.

 

.hv a productive day ahead.

 

~ u r not alone ~

i have to share this...really have to share this:-

 

BILA BERSENDIRIAN

bila bersendirian

jangan rasa kesepian

walau tanpa teman

kita tetap diperhatikan

 

dalam gelap atau terang

ada mata yang sentiasa jaga

melihat perlakuan dan rasa

mencatat dosa atau pahala

 

bila bersendirian

jangan katakan 'aku sunyi'

sebaliknya selalu bisikkan di dalam hati

pada diriku sendiri

ada Pemerhati

 

bila bersendirian

teruji keikhlasan

tanpa kejian atau pujian

apakah terus ada kesetiaan

berfikir dan berzikir

dengan tulus kesunyian!

~ quoted from "Di mana Dia di hatiku?" by Pahrol Mohd Juoi ~

 

i was flipping through the pages of this book when i saw this nicely written sajak on page 43. at first, rs tersentuh & i thought that it really serves as a good reminder to myself. and then, di petang maghrib yg hening di Hari Raya ni, cousin texted me & said "sunyinye org blk ry". yeah i know, cousin...u r struggling now (*bak kata anda "mengumpul semangat semerah padi") & ditambah pulak dgn semua org berhari raya mkn sedap2, tapi anda kna berkhidmat utk msyrkt. thus, the idea of sharing this beautifully written words with others & hopefully this will help u to go through the SUNYI phase.

 

utk yg lain juga (ditujukan juga kpd diri sndiri), hope u find this useful when u r facing hard times and bad times and SUNYI times. u r NEVER alone.

 

oh ye, this is the first item i bought through online shopping =)

 

~ waaaahhhhh, annoying nyeeee!!! ~

different people react differently towards certain situation. some people just don't understand knp kdg2 i cpt sgt nk kuar statement "eeeeiiii, menjengkelkan!!!". yes, read previous posts and u'll know how certain things make me feel annoyed, sedangkn d same thing x bg impact apa pn kt org len, hahaha.

 

i'm listing below 3 scenarios yg leh wt some people get annoyed. awal2 i nk btau ni, this is not just d list of things yg buat I rs menjengkelkan. d list also adalah cnth of d scenarios that make kwn2 i rs annoyed towards certain things/people/situation and errrrrrr...look =)

 

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1) bila org xpaham bahasa & sj nk test your level of kesabaran

ada org xleh tahan dgr bunyi sudu & garpu berlaga, ngilu katanye. it's a well known fact among kwn2 dia yg dia ni mmg xleh dgr bunyi sudu garpu berlaga. so, kenkwn sejati dia, cz dh tau dia rs annoyed bila sudu garpu berlaga, mmg akn sgt berhati2 bila mkn pki sudu garpu dpn dia ni. tp adalah pulak a fren of dia ni py fren yg sj nk tnjk friendly bila 1st time (or 2nd time, or 3rd time & so forth) jmp. dh sekali org pesan toksah laga2 sudu garpu, dia ni degil & sj2 gk wt mnda yg kwn ni mmg xleh dgr. mmg dasar xphm bahasa kot, selayaknye kna penumbuk,muahahaha. annoying giller eh??? org dh ckp jgn laga2kn sudu garpu, ko buat gk. mmg ko sj cari psl. ko mmg menjengkelkan!!!

 

2) bila org suka2 hati buang/alihkn your stuffs

ada org yg wpun meja dia serabut/bersepah, dia tau dia ltk brg/kertas/document ktne. walaupun meja/bilik dia npk cm kapal karam, tp dia tau nk cari a particular document (cnthnye) kt atas meja ke, tepi kabinet ke, bawah meja ke, dpn tingkap ke, etc2... (menda berlonggok2 tu kita andaikan la mcm mini gunung berapi yg nk meletus ye, hahaha). tetiba la pulak de org dtg nk bersihkn bilik dia, org tu g lap2 meja dia & alihkan kertas fr belah kanan meja to sebelah kiri. lap2 meja lg & alihkn pulak susunan buku kt timbunan atas meja dia (buku kt timbunan belah bwh g letak belah atas, yg atas g letak belah bwh). plg kronik, if org tu igt kertas berconteng2 ats meja tu is sampah, sedangkn ada important facts yg dia tulis dlm kertas tu (obviously itu bkn sampah kalo still kt atas meja). so, ini menimbulkan amarah!!! ini sgt annoying sekali!!! menjengkelkan!!!

 

FINALLY,

3) bila org dress up tidak sprti yg kita suka tgk

ada org yg xsuka tgk laki pki tshirt/kemeja utk g kerja kaler pink (contohnye). or xsuka tgk pompn pki gelang smpi ke siku (contoh lg). & de org xsuka tgk any baju/seluar/tudung/kain yg corak kotak2 (xtau la cmne dia tgk kain pelikat being worn by bapak & adik beradik dia). and ada lg yg xsuka tgk any baju/seluar/tudung/kain yg corak jalur2 (xtau la cmne dia tgk Jalur Gemilang, hehehe). kita amik la contoh org yg xsuka tgk seluar kotak2 (with the k-pop fashion yg makin jd kegilaan wrga Malaysia, senang nk beli seluar kotak2 skrg ni). so bila dia terjmpa laki pki suar kotak2, trus dia pangkah. pd dia, gaya pki seluar kotak2 tu mmg xleh diterima akal. menjengkelkan!!!

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fr these 3 contoh, d final example i xleh tahan. got d whatsapp message recently:-

fren: i rs i dh tau apa yg iritates i psl XYZ tu.

me: apa dia? what makes u rs dia tu mnjengkelkan u?

fren: haha. u mesti gelak. tak logik. tp mmg menjengkelkan ku. seluar kotak2 dia. hahaha.

 

well, can't blame d person's choice of wardrobe, hahahaha... 

~ knp la sggh mencabar ~

journey nk blk umh from ofis semlm adalah agk sgt mencabar. kalo kira la tempoh perjlnan from d time i kuar ofis smpi la i reached home, dh lebih kurg serupa cm journey from Bangi to Johor kot.

 

semlm hujan lbt... merata2 la hujan lbt. standard biasa la kalo ujan lbt sket je sure jd flashflood. hasilnye, i kuar ofis kul 5.35p.m., i reached home 9.40 p.m.... seeeeee???? lbh kurg cm nk g johor/penang je, kn?

 

~ dpn tu tol Sg. Besi. i menatap tol Sg. Besi je dkt 1jam ok ~

 

dh le sejuk cz ujan lbt. kalo bkk tgkp keta & switched off aircond keta pn sejuk, kalo switched on aircond apatah lg. & saya bila dh kul9 cmtu x mkn2 lg, perut dh jd kronik tahu. tambah lk sejuk. cm nk nanges cz kelaparan dlm keta =( smpi je rumah, kebuloq... trus cari choc cake yg dpt ms kenduri. abis half choc cake, amik lk nasik. aaaahhhh....nikmaaaatttt =) igt, itu dh semestinye la menghampiri kul10mlm & i mkn kepelbagaian food yg menyumbang ke arah, emmm...x pyh ckp la. kesimpulannye, jgn diamalkn sll2 sgt mkn aftr kul8.

 

harini g kerja & lalu kt d same highway yg i stucked dlm jammed less than 12-hour yg lps. haisssshhhh.... nk muntah!!!

~ MATA hati ~

i started wearing spectacles since i was in standard 6. msa tu power x la byk mna. tp i can't see clearly from certain distance. my father bw i g kedai spectacles & uncle cina tu kata dh kna start pki spectacles utk cntrl supaya power xmakin naik mendadak.

 

msa awal2 pki spectacles rs la cm bdk pndai... ye la, bdk pndai yg rajin membaca yg akhirnye contribute towards jd rabun, hewhewhew. pdhal xsedar, bdk rajin main game kt komputer pn leh cntribute kpd mata rabun (i started main game kt kmputer since i was 6yrs old kot, msa tu game Digger yg famous. no wonder smpi la ni rajin main game lg).... begitu jugak bdk rajin tgk tv dr jarak dkt pn lh jd cpt rabun. kesimpulannye, jgn nk prasan yg diri adalah rajin membaca maka contribute kpd menjadi rabun, totally contradicting.

 

sepjg2 pki spectacles ni ada 1X je keajaiban berlaku. ada sekali tu i rs cm kpale i pening2, bila ngadap cmputer je i kna set kpale i to specific angle br i xpening. i pkir abisla ni, kalo g optometris sure naik power spectacles ni. rupenya bila check kt optometris, dia ckp power spectacles i dh menurun =) waaaaahhhh, amazing!!! tetiba jd riak - "see??? wpun bc buku citer smbl baring & bc buku citer dlm not so good lighting, power spectacles ku masih leh turun, muahahaha" (smbl gelak riak).

 

i de angan2 nk pki contact lense. mslhnye penakut, huhuhu... penakut nk ltk menda dlm mata. d biggest challenge adalah i ni suka sgt menggenyeh/menggosok mata dgn ganas. sbb i ganas bila tiba bab menggenyeh mata ni la i xberani gk nk pki eyeliner/eyeshadow. krg wt penat je pki eyeliner/eyeshadow konon2 nk rs cantik, tetiba bila mata gatal mula menggosok mata dgn ganas, dh comot eyeliner/eyeshadow aku. IF i pki lense & tetiba i terganas menggosok mata, lg parah kot. so, padam jelah angan2 nk pki contact lense.

 

tp now dh de org tegur ckp mata i npk cm penat (mmg le aku pnt pn) & de dark circles kt mata. aritu g Guardian pharmacy, aunty yg jg section jual2 ubat tu pn ckp d same thing. memikirkan dh a few times kna tgr dgn org psl mata ni, now i dh start cari solution kpd problem mata ni. semlm went to Watsons & bought Brand's Innershine Pati Beri.

 

image from www.brandsworld.com.my
 

i bought d small box with 6 bottles inside. nk try for 6days la konon2nye & hrp2nye de improvement. kalo bernasib baik, mbe de improvement with this 1st box. if x pn, kna try lg anthr box & hrp2nye de perkembangan positive.

 

org ckp "dari mata turun ke hati" (*wink wink *). moga2 mata lbh cerah-bersinar-cntk lpsni, hehehe...

 

~ i know u won't like it... ~

"i will love the light for it shows me the way, yet i will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars" ~ Og Mandino

kalo xsilap, pg smlm on d way g kerja i dgr topik psl "MEMBEBEL" kt radio. tp i kn biasa la, prjlnn pergi&blk krja dlm kereta mmg x sah kalo x tido, muahaha. yg i terdgr psl topik "MEMBEBEL" tu pn i xde la dgr betul2 sgt cz tgh mamai2, br terbgn & kebetulan dh dkt nk smpi opis. among isi kndgn yg i igt la pnceramah tu ckp is kalo de org mmbebel kt kita (cnthnye parents mmbebel kt anak, cikgu mmbebel kt ank murid, etc2), amik la bebelan tu s smthing positive, utk mmbetulkn diri.

tp skrg i jd runsing... risau cz... cz i realize nw that i kuaaaaaaat sgt mmbebel kt opis la. haih!!! by kul 5.30ptg bila nk abis office hour je i jd pnt, exhausted giller... bila pkir2 knp aku letih sgt arini, sng je lh jwb sndiri "sbb ko byk sgt mmbebel la, hoh!" i pn xsuka sbnrnye bila i jd terkuat mmbebel. org mmbebel kt i pn i xsuka, so i pn tau gk la yg org pn sure (lbh2 lg kot) xsuka bila i mmbebel. opismate ckp i can jump from one topic to another topic and to another ms i mmbebel kt opis. adeh!!! sggh buruk skali perangai mmbebel tnpa kwln ni.

mungkin la (KEMUNGKINAN BESAR) lately ni i take life serious sgt kot. waaaaaaayyyy too seriously. lpstu bila krja menimbun (krja mmg xpnah surut, kn) & ada fktr2 smpingan yg wt i rs "haihhh, knp wt cmni?" or, "haihh, awat la br skrg nk bg?", or "heeeehhh, kn dh btau td lg" (among d examples), itu la yg trigger alarm "MEMBEBEL" i. tp dlm krja menimbun tu, ada bos ckp meja i kemas, muahahaha... ok, itu selingan =)

so, i memasang niat ni (kalo nk buat amal jariah, psg niat pn dpt pahala kn), nxweek i nk cntrl diri la... mahu menjadi adik manis & xnk mmbebel2, hehehehe (blueeek... blueeekkk...). ye i tau, kesian kt sape2 yg kna tadah telinga dgr i mmbebel. sape2 yg kna directly, lg la kesian. kalo yg dok agk jauh fr my desk pn dpt dgr i mmbebel, mknanye mmg aku ni dh kronik, gegegege... yg lbh pntg, i nk jg kesihatan diri. i dnt think i mmbebel cm pjg2 sgt (tp xtau la kot yg mndgr rs i mmbebel pjg), cumanye i mmbebel byk2 point skaligus, lpstu i stop dh, hahaha... sama jelah kekdah nye tu kn... stil "MEMBEBEL" gk la tu.

ada Doktor pnah nsht srh i cntrl anger. Doktor ckp, bila kita mrh tnpa kwln, kita py jntg berdegup laju. dgn hormon2 sume lintang pukang dlm bdn (Doktor xde la bg ayt cm ni, tp it has similar meaning). bila jntg berdegup laju, pd ketika tu dgn darah pn pam laju, kita jd makin aktif nk marah, makin membuak2 nk release pe yg dlm hati/kpale. that is actually bad, Doktor ckp. so Doktor srh i cntrl... asal tgh mrh je cuba cntrl diri supaya jntg xla berdegup laju. lama2 mrh insyaallah kurg,

skrg i nk praktikkn cara Doktor dgn cntrl mmbebel. & mungkin prlu lbh enjoy kerja, wpun pd ketika itu cm tersemput2 nk siapkn. there r things/events/ppl/etc2 that i can't cntrl. i guess i jst hv 2accept it. & most importantly, i hv colleagues&friends who r there 2remind me of my weaknesses when i don't even realize it (in this case, i realize yg i makin kuat mmbebel sbnrny, huhuhuhu)... in this world that we live in, light and dark and all shades of grey in between, may we be surrounded with more ppl to remind us of our wrongdoings so that we can be a better person.

~ sell fish boleh, tp jgn SELFISH ~

kdg2 my friends ckp yg i ni kurg ada perasaan. tgk citer ombak rindu, kwn seblh dok sok-sek-sok-sek ngs, i tgk tnpa ada linangan air mata. genangan mungkin ada la... kot. ada minah cun dress up cntk molek & kenkwn akn ckp "pe kata u skali sekala dress up mcm dia. cntk", i jwb dgn soalan "cntk ke?". tp i bab2 berangan & perasan di satu hari nt dpt kenal dgn lelaki gagah perkasa (u already know i ni lemah & lembik), menawan hati, mmpu menyanyi smpi wt i terdodoi, mmg tak penah kurg (muahahaha...). juga tahap kesabaran sgt menipis pabila kelaparan, pn perasaan yg tidak pernah kurg. juga tahap kesabaran menipis juga bila berurusan dgn org2 selfish. kalaupn i x berurusan dgn d lot of selfish people, i ternpk perangai/aksi/aktiviti selfish diorg, trus aku berperasaan amarah membuak weh (ngauuuuummmm!!! tiger dh bunyi).

among perkara selfish yg dibuat oleh manusia kt bumi ni yg buat i skt ati adalah:-

amalan mengganggu ketenteraman jiran.
pukul 5 ptg ko nk bergendang kt umah ko, silakan. takde org pn nk halang. nk buat lagu "gendang gendut tali kecapi" dgn drum tu pn xpe. tp kalo dh pukul 7.30mlm, time org nk smyg magrib ko dok ketuk2 drum lg, oooohhh... pns btul tlinga i dgr. inikan pulak dh dkt pukul 11mlm br ko bikin konsert kt umah ko, adeeehhh... mendidih darahku. unless if your house adalah rumah yg lgkp complete set stereo with sound system gempak skali dgn sound proof, u better jgn berani2 wt konsert kt taman perumahan area rumah teres tak tentu masa eh. ko nk gk wt konsert free tnpa batasan masa, leh buat kt hutan kot. cnfirm binatang2 kuar dr persmbunyian utk dgr ko bergendang smbl menyanyi.

blocking laluan.
sama ada u park your car kt tengah2 jln smpi blocking kereta blkg nk jln, or u place your tong sampah kt luar rumah btul2 kt sempadan dgn gate jiran seblh just bcz ko xnk org parking sekejap kt dpn rumah ko, sama jelah kesmpulannye - U R BLOCKING MY WAY, *%^@!!! idup berjiran ni kna hormat hak jiran seblh. apa ke halnye g ltk tong smph btul2 kt smpadan gate jiran sblh as sign protes xnk bg org park dpn umh ko? apa halnye kedekut sgt tanah? kesian kt jiran, tahu?!!! everyday nk kna ngadap tong sampah ko lk pagi2 hari ms nk g kerja.

tiada tolak ansur.
selalu kn kita jmp situation masa tgh drive & nk memotong & kita dh bg lampu signal tp org nk himpit gk & xnk bg laluan, knp org tu nk himpit gk ye? knp org tu xnk tolak ansur? lg 1 sample, if naik komuter time peak hour & then xde seat. tp kalo de org laki2 tgh duduk dgn sng lenang, lpstu kebetulan lk i naik tren tu dgn my mom. knp lelaki tu xnk tolak ansur & bg my mom duduk? knp bdk pompn yg kt sebelah laki tu plak yg bgn & bg seat dia kt my mom? knp bkn laki tu? why??? why???

ni sebahagian jelah dr mnda2 selfish yg manusia buat (emm... hopefully i xbuat la mnda2 cmtu) yg menimbulkn rs amarah dlm jiwa i. tp i ada bc a blog post about d secret of happiness dr perspektif remaja (u can read it here). kdg2 kita lupa yg by "FORGIVING" others, kita sbnrnye cntribute 2 our own happiness. kita x sedar yg kdg2 kita terlebih drama, or emo, lagi2 yg pompn, when actually "AVOIDING DRAMA" & just keep things to yourself are better ways to lead to your happiness. kita dgn keras hatinye xnk menerima yg sometimes "SHIT HAPPENS" and our grieving period is longer than it should be, when actually we should not forget that there are many many more things in this world that can make us happy other than this one shitty case.

hmmm... smthing happened yesterday & i cuba nk apply the points written in that blog post dlm kehidupn i so that i xyah nk skt ati lama sgt. makin i tahan & senyap & x curhat kt org opis about that incident, makin tebal lk skt ati ni. so, last night i decided that i better sleep & just pray that d same skt hati feeling will not be there when i wake up d next morning. & yeah, it works a lil' =) & if i may add to d list, probably i will add bgn pagi pergi pasar pilih ikan as 1 scret of happiness, at least to a matured teenager like me (ngehehehe...). hey, i'm still a teenager okaaaayyyy =)

~ ignorance is bliss ~

yesterday's and today's newspapers, websites, CNN channel, etc2 ada kuarkan byk cerita about Donna Summer who died at the age of 63 (of cancer). i x tau Donna Summer tu sbnrnye saper... tau la dia tu artis tp xtau pe lagu yg top hits meletup yg dia nyanyi, or whether she was an actress. pd ketika kesah kematian Donna Summer stil tgh pns, kuar la this conversation between me and lg 2 org about Donna Summer (bear in mind, i xtau lagu hits Donna Summer, plus i also do not know whether she was an actress):-

ME : donna summer tu sape? dia yg nyanyi lagu "i will survive" tu ke?
A     : ntah la. lagu tu mcm dh ada byk version je. so xtau la whthr dia ke yg nyanyi lagu tu.
ME : oooo...ok... tp, hmmm... sape yg nyanyi lagu "i will survive" tu ye? i igtkn dia yg nyanyi.
B     : P. Ramlee kot... (** jwpn dgn nada & muka selamba **)

hah????? P. Ramlee???? ada sape2 pnah dgr P. Ramlee's version of "i will survive" x?

--- at the time this entry is written, i dh tau siapa yg nyanyi lagu "i will survive". tp wpun dh cari dlm youtube & dah tau lagu pe yg Donna Summer nyanyi, i stil can't recall her songs. takpe lah. may her soul rest in peace ---

~ healthy lifestyle program ~

it started with a phone converstn btwn my cousin&i:-

cousin: tau x ktne de gym kt bangi tu?

me: xtau sgt. tp lh la tlg2 tykn. knp?

cousin: xde la, igt cm nk g gym.

me: aikkk??? knp cm beriye nk cr gym? xkn makin comel berisi lps kawen ni?

cousin: bkn la sbb itu. nk jg kesihatan. kt hspital ni evryday tgk org muda2 lg dh sakit2. de yg diabetic, kna drh tinggi, skt jntg. so, xnk la jd cmtu.

me: wowww!!! menakutkn je bunyinye.

cousin: a'ah, sbb tu la nk cari gym, nk bersenam.

well, i've been wanting to join a gym for quite some time. tp alasan yg sll dlm kpale would be "kul brp nk g gym? blk kerja, smpi umh dh dkt kul8. dh pnt. dh xlarat. nk mkn lg. nk rehat. nk itu. nk ini. blablablabla". maka, angan2 nk g gym secara otomatis terkubur begitu shj T____T

every year, "amalan gaya hidup sihat" would be in d list of the new year's resolutions. thn ni tukar sket statement, "shed 3 kg" (don't ask brp berat i ms i list down d resolution cz i pn xtau, hahahaha).

berpandukan kpd keinginan kuat cousin i utk cari gym la, i dpt kesedaran diri utk amalkn gaya hidup sihat. this time for real punya (ecehcehceh). & hrp2nye xla separuh jln je. memndgkn ada gym kt ofis, FREE lk tu, apa la kata kita gnakn kemudahan yg dh tersedia utk jd lbh sihat. xyh nk lma pn, 20 minit for each session pn dh cukup.

so, sejak lasweek i g gym kt ofis. gym tu xbesar. ada 2 threadmill & 3 basikal & prkakasan len yg i xtau cmne nk guna. setakat ni br 4X la i bersenam & i akn pilih time2 yg odd so that i'll x bump into anyone else yg nk gna gym gk. 1st time, i bersenam start dkt2 kul4. 2nd time, msa org tgh break smyg jumaat. 3rd time, msa lunch hour. 4th, pagi2 (right aftr i smpi ofis). hasilnye??? berpeluh sakan & bdn rs segar. & oh ya, as a result of dh terrrrrrlalu lma xbersenam, free2 je dpt betis skt aftr my 1st gym session... a few days suffer nk turun tangga cz otot tlh dikerjakan, huhuhuhu.

tp i dh dinshtkn supaya cntinue gk bersenam wpn betis skt. if i want 2hv a rest, then 1day would be enuf. jgn rest lma2 sgt cz once bila start blk smula, nt skt blk betis. i folo nsht okeh. skt2 betis pn g gk 2nd time... lari kt threadmill & basikal. tabiat plg xleh tahan, sebok nk tgk brp byk kalori dh burn after say 20minit of running, ngehehehe (it seems like more calories are burnt when using the bicycle, as compared to running on threadmill). ada hari lk i sebok nk tgk brp distance i dh lari. lps gym session, mndi2, then masuk ofis blk. i won't take d session smpi setgh jam cz nk tgg bdn sejuk lg, then nk mndi & siap2 masuk ofis again. basically, bljr time management gk tuh.

skrg rsnye dh get used 2 d routine (wpn br 2nd week). betis no more tegang & dh x ssh nk turun tangga. now my pergelangan kaki jelah pulak yg lenguh2. but it's x as painful  as d pain i tahan lasweek cz betis tegang. skrg when any of my friends at work ty how much weight i've lost sejak g gym, i can just say that it's not about losing weight anymore. if i DO shed some kilos, i'm gonna think of it as a bonus. my main motivation now is to keep myself fit & melatih pernafasan =) i might just cancel off d original 2012's goal from shed 3 kg to

run 2km in 20minutes (semakin rajin i g gym, hrpnye semakin jauh distance i dpt cover in my 20minutes session).

have a super great day everyone :)

~ dream ~

a girl can always berangan... about everything... from d house you want 2have someday, to d type of guy u wish u can date, to d clothes u would wear on your 1st apperance in a television show, to d place/island you want 2go if you win half a million. well, as i said, about everything. almost everything.

i suka gk berangan2 ni. selalu lk tu. lpstu wt dialog2 gilo. berangan kn katanye =)

once, i was on d phone with a friend. we were having girl talk about men and we also talked about gosip artis laki kt Msia ni... bercinta, then break. bercinta, then break. during that phone cnvrsation, we were talking about a particular artis lelaki. so, with my creative head, i said to my friend, what if 1 hari nt artis laki tu bercouple dgn i? and our conversation continued with her asking me whether i sggp tahan diterjah by org2 tv (we specifically mentioned a TV program) yg ty soalan maut. again with some creative thinking, we came up with a possible interview question from d wartawan, yg bunyinye lbh kurg cmni:-

"btul ke u dgn XYZ skrg? dia dulu dgn pelakon wanita ABC tu, cantik, comel, etc2. tp dh break & skrg dgn u pulak. u rs2 la, pe yg buat dia leh terpikat kt u agknye ye cz frankly speaking, u bknnye ada rupa pun".

~ awas, soalan interview cmni mmg lh wt pns ati & telinga dgr ~

tp i nk jwb dgn pnh konfiden... imagine ye, sila imagine if i jwb cmni -

"yeah, i may not have d beauty, but i have d BRAIN" (muahahaha... &gelak).

ok... tu adalah cnth pertama.

br2 ni lk, i terbc yg Adam Levine sudah break-off jugak dgn supermodel girlfren. smpi potg rmbt botak (tp x la botak abis) bcz sedih sgt katanye. kesian. kesian. so, i was thinking (berangan lg), hmmm... bila berangan sorg2 x syok, kita cari kwn yg leh lyn. so, i text my friend about this & bg ayt gtl skali... konon ayt tu dituju utk Adam Levine, ngehehehe... yg berbunyi:-

"i kn ada"

~ gilo!!! ;) ~

tp, kwn i ckp i kna compete dgn Jennifer Love Hewitt la pulak cz dia pn admire Adam Levine gk. alaaaaa, sj je la nk potg line. haish!!! xpe, again i feel that though i don't have d beauty, but i hv d BRAIN. yeeeeee, BRAIN itu penting juga ye. muahahaha, angan2 i sll smpi melampau2, smpi kwn i kata i mimpi di mlm hari. utk i mbe la mimpi di mlm hari. utk Adam Levine, kalo dpt girlfren cm i, kira NIGHTMARE la kot T____T

d last movie i watched at the cinema was The Vow.

d movie is inspired from true events. played by Channing Tatum & Rachel McAdams, it's about a wife who suffers from memory loss after an accident. memory loss smpikan dia xigt lgsg that this guy is her husband. so, d husband gives his best to help her to recall her memories, including the vow they made on their wedding day. abis je citer, i mula berangan... kalo la i jd cm pompn tu, i xkn lupa la ada husband handsome & cool cmtu. kalaupun ilg igtn, i tetaaaaappp akn mengaku i still igt yg dia tu husband i. waaaahhh...prasan bhgia, hahahaha =) 

yes, a girl can always berangan... about everything. but never underestimate what berangan/dream can do 2u... who knows, one day it will come true.

p/s: tp idok le smpi thp i nk kawen dgn Adam Levine tu btul2... kalo dpt yg iras2 pn, jadi la. (*blush*) lpstu suara sedap leh nyanyi utk i b4 tido. (*blush, blush*). & kpale gonjeng/botak (tak yah botak sgt pn xpe). me + botak/gonjeng, sprti xdpt dipisahkan, muahahaha.... ok, stop d berangan now. byeeee.

~ i do what i want when i feel like it ~

dh 24days in 2012. so far so good. i'm taking everything 1 step at a time. kalau org lain nk amik multiple steps, good for them. tp to me, i just need to be patient & enjoy every single step that i take. somehow i just don't understand (sometimes it irritates me... u know i can get annoyed easily) when people talk to me & ask "eh, you don't want to buy this ABC, kah?" OR "eh, you still wear that DEF, kah?" OR "you don't want to change XYZ, kah?"

first, i'm not d person yg tukar jam/kasut/beg/henfon/henfon cover/etc2 easily. friends who know me well know this fact. i would go "uuuu, cantek beg tu" but ended up NOT buying it. OR "wow, menarik wallet tu" and ended up walking away & lpstu dh x igt apa2 psl wallet tu. i got friends telling me "ermmm, wujud lg eh brg ko tu". kdg2 malu pn ada cz when people give me that kind of remark, it sorts of like telling me yg i ni x reti2 ke nk tkr brg. BUT, if i ni jns yg pndi jg brg tu & x rosak & i don't feel like buying a new one just to replace d one that i have, adakah itu slh?

then, there's d issue of PRIORITIZING between what i WANT and what i NEED. mungkin yg bertanya kt i soalan2 irritating tu x kena byr rm340 every month to PTPTN kot. jd, utk dia mungkin sng la nk "buy this and that" OR "change this and that". tp, i xleh ikut gaya org sebegitu. kn org tua2 ckp, "ukur baju di bdn sendiri"... mknanye, berblnja ikut kemampuan.

then, another issue is thp pemikiran yg berbeza antara i dgn org tu. some people are soooo down to earth yg i rs cm "ooo, bgsnye kau ni sgt merendah diri dan tidak menunjuk ko nk bermewah2". tp some others pulak, masyaallah... hmmm... i hope i'm not one of them, yakni jns yg cm ala2 nk tnjk sprti mahu compete dgn i OR nk tnjk thp kemampuan dia dkt i. if u guys can afford it, then go ahead... i wouldn't mind. yg thp cm ala2 nk compete dgn i OR nk tnjk thp kemampuan dia beli itu ini dkt i, org2 jns cmni yg buat i lemas ni. haihhhh!!! dgn erti kata lain, anda mahu tnjk kemampuan anda berbelanja/dpt itu ini, sila la "ditunjukkn" kt org lain. xyah nk compete dgn i krn kesian kt anda nt. x berbaloi pn nk tnjk kemampuan anda kt i, huhuhu.

as i said, i'm taking 1 step at a time. tapi, with the small steps that i take, at least i'm proud with myself for various small achievements. personal achievement that is. i have things that i can call mine (more things to come, insyaallah). i have some experience that i will never forget. i have good health & minda masih cergas 2learn new things from others so that i can achieve more. jdnye, small steps is good buat masa ni utk i. jgn la suruh i "lompat" jauh2 cz i want 2 do things on my own pace...

have fun. take care.

gigi cntk... no more

~ sesiapa yg jd dentist, sila bersabar bc entry ni ~

i m not a fan of klinik gigi or dentist. experience dgn dentist adalah antara pengalaman x brp manis seumur idup. 1st time g dentist masa skolah rendah, skolah dh arrange supaya bdk2 chomel sebaya i (can't recall ms tu drjh brp) supaya naik van hospital to see the dentist. mknanye, kna g KLINIK GIGI dlm HOSPITAL. ms nurse pggl i utk masuk bilik treatment, perasaan nrmal je... mbe curiousity mengatasi segala2nye. tp lps kuar je dr bilik treatment, rs cm ada menda pelik dlm mulut, rs besi2 & rupanye gusi i berdarah teruk. mbe doctor terlbh put pressure masa nk cuci gigi2 i yg chomel (gigi yg chomel, ke i yg chomel, hahaha... ignore!!!). they say d rest is history... tulah experience yg agk horrifying antara i dgn dentist... my 1st horrifying experience when i met a dentist.

since then, each time when i thought i should see the dentist utk treatment gigi for the 2nd time, i would immediately put the idea off. takut jd cm lirik lagu... "sejarah mgkn berulg...". that's why it took me more than 5 years after the 1st horrifying experience to meet the dentist for the 2nd time in my life. seriously??? 5 years?!!! ye... i x tipu, i didnt meet any dentist AT ALL during my secondary school. (boarding school maybe x menekankn kepentingan kna g dentist, perasaan agk menenangkan sepjg form 1 - 5, hahaha.) so, 2nd time i met a dentist for treatment was during my matriculation. ayt2 nk sedapkn ati b4 jmp dentist - zmn dh berubah, equipment mbe dh canggih sket, MUNGKIN gigi & gusi x kn berdarah distime. ohooo... i was wrong. i can still remember i berlama2 dkt sinki toilet just to get rid of segala berdarah2 kt gusi & gigi. ye, itu 2nd time.

but masa wt masters mmg xleh elak harus jmp dentist. tu pn cz terpksa, cz i had this rs ngilu2 kt gigi for quite some time. org sll associate ngilu dgn gigi berlubang. so, ms nk g jmp dentist during that time, mcm2 la dh terpkir dlm kpale... skt ke kn tmpl?.... agk2nye leh buat smpi ngs ke?... IF xnk tmpl xpe ke?.... tp, suprise, suprise... dentist ckp gigi xde berlubang pn!!! "mbe gigi sensitive je. xpe saya cuci skali, nk cuci pn sket je ni". fuhhhh!!! lega!!! sape tak suka if dentist bg remark menarik cenggitu =) tp, remark menarik tu xdpt memulihkn relationship i dgn dentist cz.. yeah, gigi&gusi berdarah2 gk lps dh cuci. dr ctu dh pkir, i m never gonna hv a gud experience with dentist.

lps that 3rd experience, i dh xjmp dentist lgsg. that was like some 5 years ago. hahaha.... ye, saya dh agk trauma. tp, 2 hari lps i cuti & jmp dentist... again cz terpksa =( d same rs ngilu... & i was hoping d dentist will gv d same remark like the previous dentist did - tak berlubang & kna cuci je. tapi (sob...sob...) hrpn ku musnah, huaaaa!!! dentist srh i pgg cermin azimat kecik to show which part yg berlubang :( bknnye 1 je, tp 2 okeh nk kna tmpl. i felt like, hmmm... cmne nk describe eh.... spti dunia i gelap. ok, that's too much drama (org len py problem lg kronik dr kau, sila sedar). hampa la kot, that's d right word... & also sedih (sedih is different from hampa, right?). skrg asyik nk tgk gigi bkn sbb gigi cantik, tp sbb rs gigi cm dh x cntk. agk distracting kaler silver tu.

what_i_see: i lh npk kaler silver kt gigi i skrg :(

how_i_feel: gigi agk kurg cntk

what_i_think: perlu gelak lbh sopan skrg so that org xkn prasan ada tampalan.

kekechiwaan kala ini...

takde yg lbh menjengkelkan mengechiwakan di kala ini selain drpd...

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HANDPHONE YG ROSAK, huaaaaaa!!!!!!!! 

T_T

** perlu la henfon nk rosak time2 crucial duit takde cmni... time2 nk kna travel g negeri lain... time2 blom tntu de bonus/x... grrrrr..... i syg henfon i (sprtimn i syg brg2/perkakasan2/souvenirs i dpt/buku2 citer/buku-itam-nota-penting-syst-admin-kt-ofis/etc2.)... dh konfem dpt bonus nnt, nk rosak pn i ok lg (wpun tau akn kechiwa gk)... knp kna rosak skrg? knp kna rosak lg 3 hari nk g Penang? gilo la...

be careful what you wish for...

this phrase keeps repeating in my head smnjk kali ke3 g klinik in December, WALAUPUN blom masuk 15hb (harini la br 15hb, kn?!!). remember d post yg i ckp i felt teruja being sick on my birthday? that "teruja" kinda disappear by d time masuk jmp Doc buat kali ke3 utk sakit yg xbaik2 lg (*sigh*). smpi thp Doc x sudi nk bg i antibiotic lg dh, takut i saman klinik tu cz wt i overdose dgn antibiotic, muahahaha. so, with d new set of ubat yg 3rd time masuk klinik yg sama utk skt yg sama ni, hrp2 baik la cz... cz.... i'm looking forward for my trip (working trip) to Penang ahad ni. smoga cpt sembuh... smoga cpt sembuh (wt mantra smbl tepuk2 bahu sndiri, hahaha).

sepjg tempoh berehat (bed-rest la konon) masa xsihat, i amik la peluang dok umh diam2 (dok umah diam2??? musykil) & sempat abiskan ini...

buku ini diabiskn sepjg i dok rumah & berehat ats katil last friday & saturday smbl tgg ubt slsma take effect bg bdn i lembik dan tido, muahahaha. by d time dh abis bc, ada feel cm salivating nk g minum kt Starbucks & nk experience skali service kt Starbucks as what has been described in d book, hahaha... mengada!!! toksah la nk berangan heh =) i'm signing off with a quote taken from this book:-

"don't mind criticism. if it is untrue, disregard it; if unfair, keep from irritation; if it is ignorant, smile; if it is unjustified, it is not criticism - learn from it" ~author unknown~

have a good day ahead!!!

whose fault is it anyway...

lps dh dpt bday presents utk diri sndiri, trus dpt skt tekak & selsema, AGAIN... yes, AGAIN... uhuk...uhuk...uhuk... br a few days recover (2 days to b exact) from last week's sore throat & idung yg berlari2 ank (running nose), masuk hari ke-3 dpt skt tekak + slsema lg skali. went to d Doctor ptg smlm & mntk apa2 yg patut. kali ni rela je if Doc ckp nk bg injection utk baikkan slsma & skt tekak... ada ke injection cmni?

AMANAT DOCTOR

• kurgkn mkn yg pedas2 (no problem... dh nama pn skt tekak. mmg xde selera pn nk mkn beriye, except mkn sup... & hrp maap kwn yg jauh di perantauan, dlm keadaan sihat pn i xlh nk mkn byk. dlm keadaan skt ni u suggest "mkn byk2 smpi chubby", ohohohoh...lg la x larat)
• lebihkan minum air suam (laju je jwp TAK bila Doc ty soalan cepumas "ADA MINUM AIS X?" tiba2 lk lh terlupa dh minum pineapple juice tak igt py sedaaaaappp tu, amenda nye. cheh!!! bukti...



sila focus kt air yg sedap... jgn focus kt muka i yg tercover dek asap steamboat tu



• tido kna cukup (tido kul 11 mlm & bgn kul 5.30 pg tak cukup, according to Doc)
• byk guna computer ke? ("of course la!!! i systm admin", rs nk je give that reply. tp yg mampu kuar dr mulut ni dgn suara yg sgt perlahan adalah "a'ah". sbnrnye nk bg ayt smbgn "Doc, i ni dh kna syndrome techno-stress. saya dh xlarat kerja ngadap computer e'day". tp, apakan daya, huhuhu...)
• have a good rest (Doc's remark lps dh amik my blood pressure - "pressure ok. tp u must have a GOOD rest, ok". yolah, Doc... cmne nk have a GOOD rest pn i xtau. how do u define GOOD rest? obviously, tidoooo je is not d way to get GOOD rest, right? if GOOD rest refers to dok umah, ngadap TV & be a couch potato, dh x GOOD gk cz kerja dok mengunyah food je dpn TV. *%^$#@, grrrr.... silalah define GOOD rest tu amenda, i pesakit yg nk cpt baik)

the truth is, factor penyumbang kpd kesihatan i yg x berapa baik lately ni adalah (drumrolllssss pleaseeee...)

Tak Sedar Diri Kepenatan Tp x Reti Nk Dok Umah/Merehatkan Minda

started from saturday (birthday yg mengujakan), gatal g town just because... hmmm, apa i wt kt town last saturday? tak igt, mknanye, adalah menda tak berpekdah i buat. then ahad, berjimba dgn my friends & played a game yg memerlukan kekuatan tgn.

all of us played, except sorg...

isnin g kerja dgn skt bahu badan tangan segala... bahana tgn terkejut cz dh lama x main game yg memerlukan kekuatan tgn tu. selasa (public holiday), prog berjimba jelajah KL mencari bday presents utk diri sndiri. rasanye dh kepenatan thp 2 d max kot bdn ni tp buat2 cm xde apa2. ok fine... i cuti esok (at least i ikut ckp DOC, have a GOOD rest). sabtu cm nk g PC Fair lk. **apakaaaah?!!! ko mmg x reti dok diam, kn?**

manusia mmg sll nk blame mnda lain. time2 x sihat cmni, sll la nk ckp bhw sakit yg menimpa adalah akibat drpd:-

1. MUSIM - familiar x ayt ni - "i berjangkit dr A, A berjangkit dr B, B dr 3 minggu lps dh batuk2 berjangkit dr C. MUSIM la skrg ni"? apa kejadahanye blame MUSIM? MUSIM ke, x MUSIM ke, kalo x reti monitor kesihatan diri, mmg la dpt sakit. BUKTI? cuba tgk Doctors yg treat patients masa ramai patients dtg konon2 coz MUSIM flu, ada Doctor tu sakit? xde pn... pdhl dlm 1 hari tu ntah brp puloh patients yg mengadap d same Doc tu dgn flu, btul x?!!!
2. CUACA - perlu la nk blame weather ats kemalasan kecuaian sndiri yg xreti jg kesihatan?

tp mmg pn weather skrg ni x brp bgs sgt, asyik ujan je. kdg2 ujan pagi2 (cm today), kdg2 ujan ptg2 (cm yesterday). bkn ujan yg rintik2-kecik2-nk-lari-g-LRT-tak-payah-pki-payung-pn-takpe tu. ini ujan lbt punyeeee... gelap kul3 ptg dh cm kul7 mlm. cmtu la lbtnye ujn kt KL skrg, kt negeri/negara lain i xtau la plak cmne weather nye. lpstu bila ujan lbt cmni la masa nk blk kerja kna tgglkn kasut kt ofis&tkr pki selipar, konon2 xnk kasut basah masa blk kerja. tgk2 dtg ofis d next day kasut yg ditgglkn d day b4 kt bwh meja dh xde, dh kna cilok!!! apa kes la nk curi kasut kerja org lk ni? **motif tiba2 divert cerita? bkn ke ko nk ckp psl ujan?"** ok, blk kpd point asal...bila asyik ujan, jln pn sll jammed. spttnye cuti2 skolah ni perjlnn pergi&blk kerja adalah smooth, parents byk yg cuti to spend time/go for holidays with their kids. tp cz asyk ujn, parents pn xkuasa nk mntk cuti utk spend time/g holiday dgn ank2. maka parents byk yg bekerja (unless la parents tu cikgu yg cuti skolah skali)... maka jln pn jammed... maka i pn sll smpi umh lmbt cz ujan menyebabkn jlnraya jammed dr pengguna2 jlnraya yg rmi kt M'sia ni, termasuk la parents yg xnk cuti... maka i pn kurg mndpt GOOD rest cz lama sgt dlm kereta & smpi umah dh kepenatan to d max tp xreti dok diam (fuhhh!!!). dgn thp jammed kt KL yg xdpt nk dibantu ni, ada la warga yg decide utk blk ke negeri asalnye... back for good... cz warga tu ckp "jammed la KL ni, aku x larat. KL ni pn xnk terima aku dh..." ada ke jns manusia cmni? uissshhh... adaaaa... sape kata xde. BUKTI:-

gonna miss you :((

what_i_think: igtlah 5 perkara b4 dtg 5 perkara yg lainnye - 1)sihat b4 sakit; 2)muda b4 tua; 3) kaya b4 miskin; 4)lapang b4 sempit; 5)idup b4 mati...

bila kepala berasap...

bila tiba saat kna duty on wiken dan kepala terasa berasap cm nk pecah cz xreti cmne nk meng"settle"kn kerja (dan i takleh nk contact CIKGU tusyen i utk bertanya soklan cz CIKGU tusyen mahupun org lain tak bekerja on wiken), maka systm admin ni pn buat la kerja2 menggodam yg agk2 dpt lbh memberi ketenangan kt kpale.

so, when i checked my e-mail and found that cik ariza has forwarded an e-mail yg agk menarik, i feel the urge to share it here. sila enjoy gmbr2 di bwh (ihsan dr this site) yg berjaya membuat i gelak sorg2, hahahaha... i just letak these 3 pics jelah ye. utk lbh byk gmbr menarik dan kelakar, i sarankan sila la ke website tersebut. enjoy!!!

 freezer out of control katanye, muahahaha =) gilo!!!

sape la yg sggp nk wt manicure pakai menda2 alah ni. mau kuku tak tumbuh lgsg lps dh buat manicure, wakakakaka!!!

dh puas tgk gmbr2 kt atas ni (& also other pics in the website mentioned)? rasa nk gelak cm nk berguling2? nk gelak berguling2 takpe, tp "DYING right here is strictly prohibited" okeh!!! ;)



ok...masa berjimba sudah tamat. it's time to continue doing what i'm supposed to siapkan dr tadi lastweek lg... duuuuhhh, stop katne td? :( 

what_i_think: kalau i extend another week 2finish up kerja i ni, huhuhuu... bkn setakat cungkil jari dgn manicure set tu je... i cungkil kpale i skali... tolooooongggg!!! T_T

bad... bad... weekend

this entry is quite long, considering what happened to me during the weekend. hrp maaf & sila amik pengajaran.

i’ve had the most miserable weekend. g Midvalley with a friend last Saturday&lps siap berjimba, tgk movie, masuk kedai/keluar kedai, arghhh... my handbeg kna curi!!! di surau!!! time i amik air smyg!!! i’m sure the girl (kt surau pompn okeh!!!) yg curi handbag i was so frustrated cz what’s inside my wallet was only RM9... tp enough 4 her to get something for dinner. one friend said, “sabar and halalkan je”. disbbkn i pkir yg dat girl might need some cash to buy her meal, i pun mmg rela halalkn. (kesian, ko kna la curi dr org lain if nk mkn yg lbh dr RM9). tp, yg menyebabkn i’m soooooo frustrated is perkara2 yg i kna settlekn&beli baru jz bcoz hilang 1 handbag - NEW handbag, NEW Touch&Go card, NEW makeup bag&isi2nye (nsb baik i agk minimalist when it comes to make-up), NEW license, NEW IC, NEW bank cards, NEW watch, NEW business card holder... hey, total those up... sudah pasti lbh dr RM9 yg de dlm wallet i tu, kn :(

tpaksa EL yesterday to get the NEW documents (IC, license, and bank cards), NEW Touch&Go card, and NEW handbag. agk terlbh sentimental bila mengenangkn psl wallet yg dh lesap skali dgn handbag. wallet yg lesap was a birthday present from a dear friend (d same one yg ajk i ikut dia g Indon) for my birthday last year (HUAAAAA!!!! nk meraung!!!). she actually gave me 2 wallet tp yg i pki yg tu 1 jelah. ada pink lining kt dlm & belah tepi2. so all this while i sng npk wallet tu dlm handbag i yg sllny penuh dgn perkakas lain sama. skrg dh lesap, a good reason for me to use the other wallet. jd ada penjimatan&agk bernasib baik di situ. daaaaannn... dpt berjimat dan agk bernasib baik juga krn my handphone tak berada dlm my handbag. OMG!!! if handphone hilang skali, ada ciri2 leh meroyan kt Midvalley tu. what else yg i leh ckp i bernasib baik ek? let’s see...

1. b4 kuar umah, i decided utk bw 1beg kecik utk isi telekung instead of sumbat telekung dlm handbag je (handbag, ke almari baju sbnrnye?). beg isi telekung ni la yg telah menyelamatkn my handphone (refer 6th point).
2. b4 kuar umah, i dh kuarkn my staffcard dr dlm handbag & ltk kt umah. if staffcard still dlm beg, 1hal lg nk kna settle dgn office.
3. b4 kuar umah juga, i decided utk tgglkn buku citer yg sll de dlm handbag i kt umah. if bw buku citer tu skali, dh kurg la 1 buku citer from my collection
4. b4 kuar kereta, i decided not to sumbat beg kecik isi telekung tu dlm handbag (sbnrnye de ciri2 mls nk pgg byk2 beg. tp lbh kpd xnk berat bahu, so xpelah wpun kna pgg beg telekung)
5. on the way nk g MValy, g withdraw some cash dan dlm kpale ada terpkir “perlu withdraw duit utk pay my aunt cz i beli tiket flight using her credit card”. tp kemudian dpt 2nd thought “xyh dulu la kuar duit tu. nnt nk jmp dia, br withdraw”. akhirnye i just withdraw RM50 for the outing.
6. beberapa minit b4 g surau&handbag i ilg tu, i ltk handphone dlm beg telekung. nsb baik beg telekung tu xkna curi skali (that girl must’ve assumed that segala menda i sumbat dlm handbag i). dan beg telekung pn ala2 cm xmenarik, jd dia lbh tertarik utk curi handbag je.
7. a few days ago, i dh kuarkn RM100 from my wallet... duit yg i spttnye masuk akaun TH every month (tp bln ni blom smpt lg nk g TH). Just imagine if that RM100 is stil in my wallet, maka, pencuri akn dpt RM109 dlm wallet i.ohohohoho, itu mmg i xhalalkan.

yes i admit my mistake cz x tinggalkn my handbag dkt kwn i yg tgg kt luar cz x smyg&i pn x mntk dia temankn skali masuk surau tu. basically, it’s too obvious that i’m alone at that time&that makes me the most suitable/easy target. tp, xla sangka yg skjp sgt beg dah ilang. tmpt amik air smyg tu pn agk2 4 steps je dr beg i... i amik air smyg agk pantas (3 minit pun tak smpi kot)... mcm agk slmt cz dh cover both bags dgn my tudung. tp, tetap gk nk ilang (dh mmg bdk tu aim masa i masuk). lgpun DLM SURAU weh, tmpt nk communicate dgn tuhan, selamba je ada org berani mencuri. my Japanese friend (non-Muslim) py remark lps dgr my story - “OH!!! that’s so disgusting”. tgk!!! malu x?!! Xkira la Islam ke x, tp kalo dh mencuri dlm tmpt beribadat (masjid, surau, kuil, tokong, etc2), mmg la org rs disgusting xpatut. masa br2 ilang, i ada sikap positive lg, penuh kesabaran (wpun dlm hati dh agk x cool dh) ASSUME yg org TERAMBIK beg i. bdk2 yg dok dkt2 dgn beg i pn xprasan sape amik my beg. so, i pn kalut2 kuar surau, tudung herot, muka basah2 lg&cari my friend yg tgg kt luar tu. she ASSUMED d same thing – ada org TERAMBIK agknye. bila i masuk blk dlm surau, i dh jd cm org psiko, sibuk tgk kot2 sape2 dlm surau tu de teramik beg i. tiba2 dtg la sorg bdk pompn ni bg info, “saya npk ada bdk pompn tak pakai tudung amik beg akak&masukkn dlm beg dia&cpt2 kuar”. Haaaaahhhh... mala’un!!! (agak tidak sopan cz xsempat nk ckp thanx kt adik tu. smoga tuhan bg adik all the best things in this world& He will protect you from anasir2 jahat yg i dh kna ni). dgn laju, i kuar g cari guard dkt dgn area surau. guard bg direction utk g report kt polis pn i dh xleh concentrate. cmne nk konsentret weh kalo mata sibuk melilau kot2 ternpk handbag i (wpun sbnrnye tau harapan tipis) T_T

masuk dlm balai polis dkt Mvally tu, terpksa control ayu. i berniat dlm hati xnk freak out tak tentu psl cz i tau akn menyusahkn i blk cz i need to think straight&jwb whatever questions from d police dgn tenang (knn nk bertindak matang). polis srh i listkn menda2 yg dh ilang. okeh, dh wt list. lpstu tgg... masuk 5 minit, oh dh cm nk freak out. so, kuar dr balai jp&called my father&then, there goes my control ayu, muahahaha... berjurai2 airmata ngs. Xpe, asalkn tak ngs dpn polis, wakakakaka... lps bg laporan kt my father, i masuk balai balik, igtkn polis dh start nk settle my case. tp xsettle2 gk lg... kna tgg lg&i smpt call bank utk block my account. dh siap on the phone dgn bank, polis tak siap2 gk lg nk key-in my report. hangin dh!!! diorg srh i tgg cz nk settle case sorg bdk pompn yg dh mmg ada dlm balai tu (next paragraph to know about that girl’s case). i agk fed-up, so i kuar to make another phone call/report to... ehem... police kt rumah a.k.a my mom. lg skali berjurai airmata!!! muahahaha!!! kwn2 yg dh jd parents, jika ank2 anda dh besar nnt& dia call saying that he/she’s at the police station utk buat report yg brg dia kna curi, sila jgn marah ank tu cz he/she has gone through so much trouble utk luahkn kesedihan kt korg yg brg dia dh hilang. if anda2 marah juga, sure ank anda akn rs hampa&lg la xleh think straight. after nearly 40min beg ilang, report i pn dh siap, polis kt balai tu call la bos dia (kot) kat balai Brickfields. bos tu on the phone dgn i&ty 1 soalan yg i jwp dgn penuh sincere:-

Polis: jd, cik buat report ni utk dpt blk la brg2 cik tu ye?

Me  : encik, saya tak kisah pn psl handbag saya tu. saya just nk blk wallet, buku nota&kunci rumah saya.

(skip this paragraph if xberminat nk tau kes bdk pompn dlm balai tu/anda dh mls nk bc this entry)

tp, jika ank anda call dan ckp “mak/ayah, saya kt balai polis cz kna tgkp mencuri cincin hrga RM33”, jgn la anda bertindak cool pulak ye. well, tu la sbnrnye kes bdk pompn yg ada dlm balai masa i masuk tu. my friend thot that mbe bdk pompn tu lari dr rumah, i pulak igtkn bdk tu pn sama je cm i, nk report brg dia kna curi&mbe brg dia lg besar value dr RM9 yg de dlm wallet i tu so that’s why dia agk lama dlm balai. after dh lama sket i dok dlm balai tu&dh dgr converstn among polis, br la tau yg bdk tu mencuri. dtg sorg polis pompn bw gari&gari tgn bdk tu. haaaa... masa tu br bdk tu kuarkn soalan “errrr... kna gari gk ke?” pandai lk ko taknak kna gari, kn... malu la tu kot... malu org npk... cuba kalo buat hukum mencuri kna potg tgn, malu tak?!!! (Emo tnpa kawalan) bdk tu curi cincin harga RM33 (my friend npk la brg bukti tu siap tgn price tag ats meja polis). yg i pulak, masa dok ngadap polis tu, sibuk tgk report psl kes bdk pompn tu&npk la IC dia... OMG.... lahir thn 92!!! mmg la kes2 nk mencuri brg ni x mengenal usia. pttnye if ada org ty apa hobi anda, yg suka sgt mencuri ni mengaku je “hobi saya mencuri” (Emo lg!!!). tp kalau MENCURI HATI, itu tak pe, hahahah... motif?!! *knp tiba2 mood gatal* okey, serius blk...lps dh kna gari, bdk tu malu kot, so dia cover tgn dgn shawl yg dia bw. muka bdk tu cantik, wey. cerah masa dpn if apply jd pramugari. tp knp la mencuri? tak kesah la RM3 ke, RM13 ke, RM33 ke... brp2 pn nilai, toksah la nk mencuri. nsb baik polis pompn tu agk baik&i pn agk control diri. i rs, i x react terhdp bdk tu wpun tau dia mencuri&brg i pn br kna curi cz i was INSIDE the balai. if i was standing outside d balai&bdk tu kt luar gk, mau kot ilang kwln, bg satu tumbukan padu cz geram (ahahaha... bayangkan i yg lembik ni nk tumbuk org =) geli ati x...hahahaha).

Pengajaran:

1. if anda adalah org mcm i yg sntiasa bw buku nota kecik dlm handbag&anda tulis segala details bank/credit card dlm tu, PLEAAAAAAAAAASEEEE igt details bank/credit card apa yg anda tulis tu. in my case, buku nota tu sntiasa ada dlm handbag utk i tulis Things-To-Do for today (sllnye sthing about work/personal things that i need to settle). tp i tau dlm slh satu muka surat tu, i tulis my aunty py credit card details utk i book ticket flight g conference nnt. so, sila la jd bertggjwb sket, do inform org yg anda tulis details dia tu&do your part to call the bank utk block/suspend d account (dh i py brg yg ilang, xkn la nk srh my aunt lk yg g call bank, kn?)
2. tlg la jgn bw buku bank/passport anda dlm handbag. **wahai kwn yg i tau sll bw passport dlm handbag, please take note** walau mcmn pun anda rs yg bgs simpan passport dlm beg utk memudahkn anda keluar dr negara bila2 masa anda suka, anda sbnrnye create more problem. mmg la skrg dh canggih, nk apply apa2 semua cpt. tp believe me yg anda akn rs d same frustration sprti apa yg i dh rs utk apply all the NEW documents. cukp la skt ati/frust nk apply (&kna kuar duit lg) IC&lesen&ATM card baru... xyh la nk tmbh2 nk apply passport br lk (ntah2 kna kuar duit gk for the penalty). maka, sila la amik pengajaran dr kisah i ni. 

what_i_think: “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”