~ my Merdeka story ~

masa kecik2 parents I pnah bw g tgk perarakan Hari Merdeka kt Dataran Merdeka. terpacak la menyelit terjengket2 nk nengok marching punya pasal. menda yg I look forward sgt utk tgk is abang2 askar (sekarang mungkin dh status pakcik2) pegang senapang. ms tu tau senapang je... xtau pn nama glamer M16 tu. kalo lalu band skolah or band askar lk cm nk pecah la gegendang telinga kejap. tp sbb suka tgk punya psl, x kesah dh bunyi bingit pn. kalo dongak kt langit lk, ada show yg jet askar berpusing2, lpstu kuar asap kaler merah, biru, kuning, ijau. tu pn bingit gk, tp lg bingit band askar or band skolah la.

 

suka gk tgk wakil ofis2 pki baju aneh2 & marching beramai2. lpstu sebok tgk ofis mna yg pki baju paling cntk, paling bling2, paling aneh... sll interested nk tgk baju team Telekom sbb ehem... mcm astronaut hehehe...baju kaler silver2, lpstu cm ada pencawang apa segala tu. rsnye plg kurg ada la 2 kali kot my parents bw my sister & I g tgk perarakan Hari Merdeka... tu yg I igt la.

 

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masuk skolah menengah;

 

masa Form 4 ada patriotik terlebih sket. team kadet laut from our school dpt buat performance utk Hari Merdeka peringkat negeri. kitrg je bdk2 pompn, combined effort dgn bdk2 laki from 2 skolah lg. kalo nk g prektis on weekdays kna g prep lg awl dr student len cz pukul 4 cmtu dh start prektis, smpi la kul 6lbh. on weekends, prektis pagi smpi ke tghr. break jp tghari & smbg blk ptg. everyday dlm sebln lbh b4 Hari Merdeka training schedule cmtu, sungguh disiplin yg amat. kulit pn jd 8 tona lbh gelap dr kaler asal, hahahaha... phm2 jelah.

 

1st day training, lari seround padang skolah. sambil lari, mata dok focus kt bdk2 laki prektis pgg senapang. eh ehemmm... M16 (ms ni la br tau menda ni dipggl M16). npk cm xla berat mna pn. tp bila smpi ms each of us girls dpt M16 masing2, br la tau... berat rupanye =( sebln lebih training angkat M16 everyday, sggh membina otot. lps abis Hari Merdeka, trus lengan longgar semula. hadoiii!

 

we did kawad senyap... nma mcm simple je, tp sbnrnye it's not that simple. we had to memorize lpsni buat step apa, lpsni jln kt mana, lpsni  berdiri seblh siapa, brp kali nk kira, etc. nk tgk cnth performance, can click video below ye.

 

source: youtube

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itu citer Hari Merdeka I. citer Hari Merdeka korg cmne? =)

 

p/s: dh start rehearsal for Hari Merdeka. areas involved for the rehearsal & the actual parade sure jammed.

 

~ say what u feel ~

i saw and heard this while watching tv - "say what u feel". it's a good point there, but i'm not one of those who can easily say what i feel. utk menda2 berkaitan personal, often times d things that i would like to say just remain in my head, berlegar2 di minda, bermonolog sorang2... yes, that's usually me.

 

i've read it many2 times already, the gurus strongly suggest people (like me) to just say it. kalau x cakap, people will not know how u feel. ko depress, ko simpan sorg2 dlm ati. ko suka kt someone siap blushing2 pipi kalo berselisih, ko simpan sorg2 dlm ati. ko geram kt org, ko simpan dlm ati. ko rs annoyed kt org, ko simpan dlm ati. ko rs nk audition utk jd pengacara tv/radio, ko simpan dlm ati. am speaking for myself (tak tahu if org lain share d same idea), sometimes menda yg i rasa tu adalah perasaan2 negative yg xbest.... yg kalau dickpkn, akn buat org len marah/kecik ati/tension/geram smpi rs nk luku kt i. so, baek la diamkan aje (walaupn sllnye memakan diri sndiri cz sendiri yg skt ati balik). dlm cnth kes lain pulak, if i mmg marah/kecik ati/tension/geram smpi rs nk luku someone, sudah tentunya my tone akn naik secara mendadak if i don't control what comes out from my mouth based on what i feel. if xde org provoke, usually i just remain cm xde apa2 berlaku. tp if dh kna provoke sgt, hmmm... mgkn ayt2 sarcastic yg tidak menyenangkn hati akn kuar cm lava gunung berapi dr mulut ni. u wouldn't like me nnt, hehehehe.

 

itu berckp tentang what u feel secara verbal. kalo berckp in writing, mcm cnthnye tulis blog ni, hehehehe... kira ni pn konsep say what u feel gk. tp dlm bentuk tulisan.

 

when i read comments made by the public for any posts/news (kesah gossip ke, gmbr ke, etc2), kdg2 feel like "how can they write these comments here?". kalo comment secara membina, i ok lg. tp ada tu dh jd ala2 perang tulis2 dh kt ruang comment tu. yg mana de tulis yg emo sgt, mmg xsggp bc. kalo news psl artis, lagiiii.... reader A kutuk that artis, reader B kutuk reader A cz kutuk artis feveret dia, reader C sokg reader B, reader D kutuk A B and C.... and the process continues. bila dh jd kutuk2 in public cmtu, i just stop cz i don't feel it's something that i can stand to read further.

 

the same goes with the interaction/communication in facebook/twitter/youtube cnthnye. someone creates a twitter account to share anything with friends/fans/families/public. tp sudahnye jd port utk mengutuk/gaduh sesama sendiri pulak dh. sad to say, org len yg xde kait mengait tp membaca d posts will simply take side kt sesapa yg dia suka. and the cycle goes on and on. pdhal sebnrnye xtau pn sape yg say the right things and who is saying otherwise. yg pstinye, masing2 with the idea that they are free to say what they feel.

 

i know that akn ada suara2 yg ckp "kalo ko xsuka, xyah bc. diorg tulis pe yg diorg rs, nothing related dgn ko pn". mmg x related dgn i. dats d reason why i avoid reading those comments/remarks or following anything. to me it's just ridiculous that the remarks/comments section can cause gaduh among the readers/viewers.

 

as for verbally saying what i feel, let's just say i am those yg sllnye monolog sorg2 dlm kpale je sbb i pkir "terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata buruk padahnye". tp "air yg tenang, jgn sangka takde buaya". muahahaha... takut kah? =) 

 

peace y'all....

 

p/s: kalo menggedik tersuka someone pn, mmg disimpan di dlm hati jelah, huhuhuhu.