teaching? uh-uh...

i think i know myself well to admit that teaching/lecturing is not my dream job. ye, saya tahu... mengajar adalah pekerjaan mulia. tp i dont think that i'm d type yg ada cukup kesabaran utk jd lecturer/cikgu. salah 1 dr keadaan di bwh might happen bila i jd lecturer/cekgu:-

1. i terlebih baik ati - i bg kerja kt ank murid. lpstu bila anak murid ckp dia xreti buat, i yg akn buatkn kerja yg i bg utk dia. maka, siapa yg bljr sebenarnye?
2. i terlalu x sabar - if dh ajar tp anak murid xreti gk jwb/buat, ada ciri2 cpt panas ati.

so, apabila bebrp org new staff join the library team, existing officers & library assistants were given the honour chance utk jd tenaga pengajar. sesi dgn i dlm schedule ada 2 kali, 1st on last Monday and another on last Friday. each session was not that long... maximum 2 hours je.

how would i rate myself as a trainer/cekgu? hmmm... RASA sprti i did well, walaupn there are some points being left out cz x smpt nk ajr/tnjk. but there's still time for them to learn & for me to show how things work. the real challenge? i have to say to keep suara i stabil sepjg the 2 hours of explaining how things work, what i do, why things are being done that way, etc2 adalah a challenge. terus mengimbau kenangan zmn studi... terigt kt my lecturers & i thought - how did they do it?!! i mean, those lecturers yg leh sustain suara masih merdu by the end of the class, dgn bg lecture dlm classroom besar to more than 20 students in 3 hours?!!! fuhhh!!! agaknye petua diorg is to drink air asamboi byk2 b4 masuk class kot, muahahaha... i ni br ngajar 3 org, 2 jam je & in a SMALL room... i mean small room, okeh... trus rs diri kerdil.

though i RASA i did well (tiada unsur2 perasan bgs di situ), i still think lecturing is not my thing... at least not within the next two to five years. tp, who knows if 1 fine day i might change my decision, kn... arini maybe i ckp "tak mahu", tp that might change dgn kuasa Allah. as of now, let me say that i really respect & look up to those who choose this career.

"once a teacher (or a lecturer), always will be"