"i will love the light for it shows me the way, yet i will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars" ~ Og Mandino
kalo xsilap, pg smlm on d way g kerja i dgr topik psl "MEMBEBEL" kt radio. tp i kn biasa la, prjlnn pergi&blk krja dlm kereta mmg x sah kalo x tido, muahaha. yg i terdgr psl topik "MEMBEBEL" tu pn i xde la dgr betul2 sgt cz tgh mamai2, br terbgn & kebetulan dh dkt nk smpi opis. among isi kndgn yg i igt la pnceramah tu ckp is kalo de org mmbebel kt kita (cnthnye parents mmbebel kt anak, cikgu mmbebel kt ank murid, etc2), amik la bebelan tu s smthing positive, utk mmbetulkn diri.
tp skrg i jd runsing... risau cz... cz i realize nw that i kuaaaaaaat sgt mmbebel kt opis la. haih!!! by kul 5.30ptg bila nk abis office hour je i jd pnt, exhausted giller... bila pkir2 knp aku letih sgt arini, sng je lh jwb sndiri "sbb ko byk sgt mmbebel la, hoh!" i pn xsuka sbnrnye bila i jd terkuat mmbebel. org mmbebel kt i pn i xsuka, so i pn tau gk la yg org pn sure (lbh2 lg kot) xsuka bila i mmbebel. opismate ckp i can jump from one topic to another topic and to another ms i mmbebel kt opis. adeh!!! sggh buruk skali perangai mmbebel tnpa kwln ni.
mungkin la (KEMUNGKINAN BESAR) lately ni i take life serious sgt kot. waaaaaaayyyy too seriously. lpstu bila krja menimbun (krja mmg xpnah surut, kn) & ada fktr2 smpingan yg wt i rs "haihhh, knp wt cmni?" or, "haihh, awat la br skrg nk bg?", or "heeeehhh, kn dh btau td lg" (among d examples), itu la yg trigger alarm "MEMBEBEL" i. tp dlm krja menimbun tu, ada bos ckp meja i kemas, muahahaha... ok, itu selingan =)
so, i memasang niat ni (kalo nk buat amal jariah, psg niat pn dpt pahala kn), nxweek i nk cntrl diri la... mahu menjadi adik manis & xnk mmbebel2, hehehehe (blueeek... blueeekkk...). ye i tau, kesian kt sape2 yg kna tadah telinga dgr i mmbebel. sape2 yg kna directly, lg la kesian. kalo yg dok agk jauh fr my desk pn dpt dgr i mmbebel, mknanye mmg aku ni dh kronik, gegegege... yg lbh pntg, i nk jg kesihatan diri. i dnt think i mmbebel cm pjg2 sgt (tp xtau la kot yg mndgr rs i mmbebel pjg), cumanye i mmbebel byk2 point skaligus, lpstu i stop dh, hahaha... sama jelah kekdah nye tu kn... stil "MEMBEBEL" gk la tu.
ada Doktor pnah nsht srh i cntrl anger. Doktor ckp, bila kita mrh tnpa kwln, kita py jntg berdegup laju. dgn hormon2 sume lintang pukang dlm bdn (Doktor xde la bg ayt cm ni, tp it has similar meaning). bila jntg berdegup laju, pd ketika tu dgn darah pn pam laju, kita jd makin aktif nk marah, makin membuak2 nk release pe yg dlm hati/kpale. that is actually bad, Doktor ckp. so Doktor srh i cntrl... asal tgh mrh je cuba cntrl diri supaya jntg xla berdegup laju. lama2 mrh insyaallah kurg,
skrg i nk praktikkn cara Doktor dgn cntrl mmbebel. & mungkin prlu lbh enjoy kerja, wpun pd ketika itu cm tersemput2 nk siapkn. there r things/events/ppl/etc2 that i can't cntrl. i guess i jst hv 2accept it. & most importantly, i hv colleagues&friends who r there 2remind me of my weaknesses when i don't even realize it (in this case, i realize yg i makin kuat mmbebel sbnrny, huhuhuhu)... in this world that we live in, light and dark and all shades of grey in between, may we be surrounded with more ppl to remind us of our wrongdoings so that we can be a better person.
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